Self-Experiment #1

“If we listened to our intellect, we’d never have a love affair. We’d never have a friendship. We’d never go into business, because we’d be too cynical. Well, that’s nonsense. You’ve got to jump off cliffs all the time and build your wings on the way down.”

Annie Dillard

The cliff I am jumping off today is a job interview. I have a job to return to next Monday. I don’t have to do this. I am going to do this to have an experience of not even wanting the job they are offering. Frankly, I don’t know how I even made it through the screening process. I am always unemployed during the summer as I work for Head Start. Everyone asks me how my vacation is going. You mean my unemployment I reply. So anyway I have to apply for jobs and generally look for work. I applied for this job a month ago and last week they called and said if I would like to interview for the position I could schedule an appointment. This was after I got my notice to return to work. But, I thought what the hell. I should go and see what it is like to really not care whether I get a job or not. I am not nervous. I am not prepared. I will wear what I feel like not what I think would impress them. I thought about getting a haircut, but decided to not change a thing. I will walk out the door just as I am any other day of my unemployment. I am not looking for a reaction. I am doing this to observe my reaction to the situation. Actually it is more of a self-experiment than a cliff, but I have got my do-it-yourself wing kit just in case.

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