I know I am a fool and have no reason to believe that what I write here is in any way bound to any part of reality as anyone would perceive it, but this may be its value. Hopefully this meandering monologue will provide perspective on the general rabble of of actions and random occurrences that make up everyone’s experience in the world.
It is obvious to me that my life is a bit of fluff tossed on the winds of chance with little will or efficacy or guidance, though at times I fall prey to delusions of agency, some of which may be true but most likely much less than it seems to me. Being a conglomeration of multitudinous entities and competing and cooperative intelligences and processes, I have made haphazard plans of mistaken discovery and inadvertent fortune. I am always uncertain of the amount of personal influence I have over any good or bad outcomes, yet I persist in making plans and choosing directions and acting as any of this is within my control and I had the slightest idea of where I am actually headed and if I really want to be there when I arrive.
You will come to a resting point in the road you travel and find that a multitude of possible pathways are available in all directions, but the one you travelled to arrive where you are will no longer exist. This will be true at any point in your journey when you stop to pay the slightest attention to where you are and where you have been. In fact every time the you that is attending will be transformed by the act of observation. The observer takes over for the observed and is the same individual and contains all previous iterations as well as pieces of future observers.
If you hold this idea as you continue and that it is true for all other travelers as well, your path may be one that leads toward enlightenment, but even this will not save you.