Dissection and Construction: Two Imaginary drawings

Dissection I

Last week we started dissecting cats in my anatomy and physiology class. I was nervous about cutting into a kitty, even a dead and preserved one, but it turned out to be more like preparing meat than anything else. Now I know at least one way to skin a cat. Anyway with all of the pictures of dissections and actual dissections I have been experiencing lately the feeling of internal biological structures revealed has crept into my drawing. This is not representational but more abstract and imaginative, maybe a life form yet to be discovered. It reminds me of muscles and bones with some organs at either end. Maybe I will draw the outside next.

Hive I

This is a piece I did a few weeks ago and fits in with some of my imaginary objects. As this piece developed I noticed that part of it look like a landing platform. It looks both grown and built maybe a symbiotic form created  by winged animals and  plants.

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Cinema as Poetry: Araya and Reveron

 

I just experienced Reveron and Araya, the only two films made by Venezuelan director Margot Benecerraf. An amazing combination of poetry, music and images, they both are framed in the daily cycle of light to dramatize very different subjects. On the surface they are documentaries, Reveron about the life of a Venezuelan artist exploring light and form, and Araya about the daily struggle for survival by three families and three villages in a desert where the sea is the only source of life. Reveron is about the isolation of the artist who is absorbed in his pursuit of the limits of visual media to express light. Araya is about the interconnectedness of lives in a place where life is a daily struggle just to move from one day to the next. Woven into both films are soundtracks of narration and music that with the images create poetry. This, to me, is a perfect use of cinema to tell the story of people so that the audience feels the story, almost lives the story. There are no dramatic plot twists or epic conflicts, but both stories show heroic struggles of real people in a dramatic but simple manner using the real objects and locations of their lives. If you want to feel like you have been in another life at least for one day there is no other piece of art that will give you that experience more clearly than these films.

Even though the film Araya was essentially a documentary placed very strongly in a real setting, the images of men trudging up a mountain of salt, or children running to the top are surreal. The idea that people for hundreds of years worked like this scraping the bottom of the salt marsh to survive is an enormous idea with so many implications. In the end of the movie we see the advent of industrialization represented as a violent disruption to the slow trudging of centuries of laborious tradition. I am still trying to figure out what is lost and what gained when traditions of hundreds of years change and people take up a different path. How will their internal lives change? What is it like to live and work in one place at one job for your whole life? What are the thoughts and dreams of a person who lives a life like this? There is a song in the background running through much of the film. A man singing, high and haunting, about one of the villages. Everywhere people are there is culture to be found and lost in the dust and smoke of industry. Maybe we can keep some of the songs and have more people singing, and hopefully the new songs will not be drowned out by the machines of progress.

 

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The End of August: 2 Dreams, 3 Poems and Some Things in Between.

8/9  

Dream:

From the dirt road,  I steer a car sliding into the drive sideways. As it slows I leap from the seat. Hearing my daughter’s cries echo deep from a half-full pale, I pull her out. Her head disfigured, eyes wonky, I clean and dry her,  worried about chemicals. As I finish,  the smiling girl enters, shining, followed by her brother and mother. Puzzled, the three  look at me as I hold in my arms the lopsided doll from the bottom of the bucket –so still, fixed and unreal.

Journal Entry:

 I used to just hang out with people and not worry about how I presented myself or what we were doing. We just did things together. I have lost who I am in all this.

8/10

Journal Entry:

8:30 am

My alarm was going off. No, it was a phone call:

“This is Karen from the Early Learning Center.”

My sleepy mind thought of a place I had applied to volunteer, but it was my friend from Marysville and my former working life. I started to explain my interest in volunteering which had to do with working with speech pathologists.

“I’m sorry did I wake you up.”

“Yeah, but that’s alright.”

“I knew it might be a risk calling so early, but I am in the closet trying to figure some  this stuff out.”

I was glad it was the Karen I knew calling me from a closet trying to figure things out. It actually made sense.

8/11

Journal Entry:

I am feeling so let down and patronized. Should I feel flattered? I should make what I want of the position.

8/14

Dream:

I was looking at a giant Ladybug Magazine with someone. Then I was riding a motorized tricycle through a dark neighborhood full of shadowy dangers. My friend’s dad opened the sliding glass door and I drove right into the house.

8/22

If I write

and write like a fiend

all I have seen, heard and done,

Leave not a crumb unfound,

All bound into the manuscript

Of greedy contemplation.

8/25

Multicellular Life

 

Every cell in my body cries out with a separate life.

How am I one being?

Am I a consensus of all these voices,

a conglomeration of the loudest calls?

I make decisions , but most of that process is subterranean

complex beyond my comprehension,

The “I” I use

a small part of a system

full of contradictions.

How to walk a narrow path

With such ballast to manage?

How to remain true to any values

when there are all these

competing clamorous mouths

that cry out from within to be fed?

 

Window

 

Jumping into a precarious situation

Balanced by creativity and action,

Leads to

Rough cream drapes

Two sticky kisses

Against lowered venetian blinds

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2011 in review: Dreams in Early August

“You think people are silly to believe in ghosts?” An old man had asked Fred Foley a long time ago. “You should hear some of the things that ghosts believe in!”

R.A. Lafferty, Fourth Mansions

8/3

Characters from a Dream in Search of a Story

The path forward seems wide enough to drive a truck through. It is my job to keep it open and drive forward. I will do this by writing.

The path forward seems wide enough to drive a truck through. It is my job to keep it open and drive forward. I will do this by writing.

Fenton, Patch, Braz, and Sterling, high school boys are arrayed in a loose circle between two parked cars in a 7/11 parking lot in Mazoula, Montana on a short sleeve night in August.

“Mebbe we should jes’ head out,” Fenton says.

 

“Where to?” Patch asks glancing at Fenton. “We could go anywhere . . .”

I lost them as I turn the page they are slow to cross the divide, frozen in the Mazoula summer night no particular year somewhere in the twentieth century before cell phones and facebook, white t-shirts ablaze with cigarette packs rolled at the shoulder, above well worked biceps bulge as they bring the orange-red glow up to hungry faces. Slouching lips suck in hot smoke and exhale with practiced cool into the fluorescent air. Which one leans on the ’67 Charger, metal flake lime green with a spoiler and scoop? That would be Braz. Doesn’t speak much.  Always thinking, he Reads Kafka and Kerouac. The others feed off of his ideas like lamprey in a shark’s mouth.

“Man, we should blow this slow stretch of highway,” He says quietly almost mumbling. “I got some dough.”

The other three look up startled, but not showing much. Patch, the usual storyteller, strangely silent, waiting as if the night held dangerous creatures ready to pounce at the sound of his usual twangy patter.

Inside the 7/11 half gallon cartons of low-fat milk line the dairy case visible above the top shelf of the chip aisle, bright bulging bags of Doritos. Sterling taps a rhythm on the sparkling hood of the charger and whistles aimlessly searching for a foothold on a song he knows. He was in a band for a while, played any instrument he picked up easily, but could not stick with anything long enough to master it.

A lone shopper pauses before the line of milk nervously glances at the boys as Fenton leans back against a red Pinto and takes another drag, tilted tensely, suddenly pacing off into the blank endless dark beyond the glare. He comes back grinning.

“Well, where to boys? I’ll be damned if I’m gonna hang out in this ghost town one more night. I’d rather be jailed, I swear!”

The place where rivers flow into the ocean, delta wetlands with mountains, caves, tidelands, forest and desert formed into mythic landscapes in Fenton’s mind. The mountain valleys and plains of Montana had stretched his days thin. He wanted warm mud and a tide. He had been to the ocean, the pacific, Long Beach in Washington. He saw the waves piling and sprawling, the hissing whoosh and roar and the endless horizon. He had only been there once, but it stayed with him like a magnet drawing; every now and then he noticed it.

8/5

Hard Line

Terrorists fill the woods. Tall graceful trees sway without wind because thousands of terrorists move through the woods.

 I draw Omar (Jimmy Smits) aside and say, “You would never use the nuclear option?”

He says, “I can’t rule that out. The trees are swaying with them. They are armed, 100,000 maybe. How many soldiers would it take.”

The cocktail party conversation hushes and heads turn in horror at his words.

“You have to negotiate,” I say.

“I don’t think they will negotiate,” he says. “They seem ready to die.”

“But you can use conventional weapons at least.”

“We have them in a confined space and could eradicate them to a man,” he insists. “We could evacuate the area so that a tactical strike would affect only a small area.”

“Why not contain them and starve them out? Surround and defend.”

“Loss of life on our side would be brutal.”

“Who are these militants and what do they want?”

“They want us to worship as they do. They want to make the world follow their laws.”

“There is no negotiating with that? What if we give them a place to live where they can do as they wish?”

“They have no idea of compromise. It is all or nothing. I intend it to be nothing rather than all.”

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Another Spam Poem

Sliced Spam

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A chunk of spam sliced and arranged:

 

 

A  Drift

Right!

human speeches memorial eyes

room

and ride 

big  Inner-system sound

   a round rowdy

should always not forget

currently glowing leader

ship,

 speaking in one zone boat,

brother!

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