Maybe All There Is Is the Next Thing That Happens

Arthur Miller‘s words spoken by Marilyn Monroe in a breathy sigh while looking over Montgomery Clift‘s broken head into an uncertain future in the movie the Misfits.

What will be the next thing? Not even John Huston when he directed the scene, nor Miller, himself, knew that when he wrote it. Who knows maybe Marilyn messed up the line, and they kept it. What is the next thing? Life! What was next for Marilyn was a very sad death. The next thing for Montgomery Clift was a sad bit of life full of addictions and confusion with a couple more movie parts to play. Things happen. Sometimes they are things that help you and sometimes not. Some people would say that the things that happened to Marilyn and Montgomery, the fame and fortune parts, were things to be envied. I wonder if things might have worked out better for them if they had failed and struggled more, and never made it to that scene in the Misfits. The problem is nobody has a lot of control over what actually happens, only how they respond to it and what paths they choose to take as they go from one thing to the next. Things will happen that we neither plan nor want, even if you are able to arrange your life so you get what you think you want you can’t know you want it until it happens. All we can do is move on to the next thing in whatever way makes sense at the time. It is like we are all short people working our way across a crowded train station during rush hour. Many things may happen but all’s we can see of where we are going is a bunch of people trying to get where they are going. How did I get into this train station from a movie? Where am I headed with this? Who knows?

Anyway I am hoping my next things are a little more positive after the weekend I have had. I am so done with being sick. Bring on the next thing! It’s bound to be an improvement, though I know I can’t be sure until it happens.

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Doris Lessing Wrote Science Fiction?

Yes, and she did it very well.

I just finished the first volume of Doris Lessing‘s Canopus in Argos: Archives series. It is an astounding work of imagination combined with some insightful critical commentary on modern society, as well as some interesting ideas about life, death and religion, and the futility of politics. It is kind of an anti-Fountainhead, portraying a world in which most people only act according to their own greed and desires, which brings about the end of civilization. But, all is not lost. There is a happy ending. Definitely a wild and deep read full of surprises and interesting ideas.

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The Death of the Fool: La Strada

I found him tragically fallen from his perch in this most appropriate of situations.

La Strada is a oddly captivating fable that leaves pieces of itself in my dreams. Anthony Quinn‘s brooding brute, Zampano, looming over the elfin waif, and the angel fool puts the pebble in place to bring about the tragic end. Fellini never overreaches, he just tells the story. Even the oddly dubbed Italian adds to the strange mix along with the sense of place imbued by shooting on location in rural Italy after the war. There is much bleakness and ruin shot in black and white, beautifully and mercilessly  mundane. On this backdrop the tale shines starkly.


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Some projects forming in the staging area of my mind

Art:

an assemblage built on a 2 foot square of small parts, parts from old models, small bits of painted wood, maybe in the form of a house or landscape or a fantastic machine. There may be some sewing involved since I was inspired by some of the needle work I saw at the Quilt Museum in La Conner last month.

Preschool:

Start a worm farm in one of our sensory tables. There maybe other bugs involved also, as well as planting various seeds and maybe frog eggs. Lots of living things.

Photography:

Accidental Symbols: The other day I saw a loop of hose with one end drooping to the ground and curving up a little into the shape of a white nine on the background of the wall of a little red shed. I will keep my eyes open for more numbers and letters or shapes that just look like symbols.

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Keeping the Juices Flowing

I have tried to figure out how to make consistent blogging work with my new job. It is quite a problem as my job and commute take up much of my day five days a week, and on weekends I have to manage to do everything else that my life requires like laundry and other such tasks necessary to the maintenance of a reasonable life. On top of that I added dental work to my list today, but I am going to put this out now, partially to distract from the pain coming from my mouth.


I have once again fallen into my old pattern of slogging through whatever my life is at the time. This just makes me apathetic and tired, but the effort of writing or art seems monumental at time. Inertial forces build up the more I avoid creative work to the point that I feel the effort is beyond me, until something inside me, I don’t know what it is, like my system reboots after being bogged down to the point of power off. So here I am again wanting to create something interesting. I don’t really care what it is. I just want it to be uniquely mine. Not from a pattern or kit.


Last weekend I started this process by going to my local recycled hardware store (ReStore) and bought some stone tiles and a metal bracket that looks like a piece of sculpture. If it was 20 feet long and laying on a street corner in my town it would be a sculpture. I added to this collection a cover from a watch I dismantled. I arranged them and started to take pictures.


As I worked with the pictures I could feel my mood lifting. This is way it goes with me. I keep my head down and get through life, until I run into a wall and then I have to paint a mural on whatever I run into. Unfortunately with me moods come and go and I am rarely able to hold on to this feeling of creativity. I must be vigilant and obsessive or it runs like paint through my cupped fingers. The stains just remind me of effort, but not the process of making something new. That is where the power is. That is what drives the desire to do more in many ways. Writing comes easier when I am making stuff with my hands or working on photographs. Drawing and making are easier when I am writing. When it starts flowing I just have to keep it going, or get out the big slogging boots again.

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